Hehehe… It’s been a while, eh…? Sorry. It’s holidays! I’ve been so relaxed, it’s so nice. But unfortunately, that meant that I really wasn’t thinking about my blog. So yeah, I apologise.
Well! The last episode of Sherlock Season 3, His Last Vow, came out last night. I’ll probably watch it with dinner. I am ridiculously excited. Seriously, the last 2 have been brilliant. Ugh, I don’t want to be on hiatus again!
When I was 10, I was diagnosed with dyspraxia (no, not dyslexia). There was like some 8 page report and being 1o, I really didn’t want to read it. So, I’d tell people. And they’d say “What’s that?” but because I hadn’t read the report, all I could say was “It’s just this thing that means I can’t write neatly or have great coordination.” Well, for the past year now, (2013 included, ya little smart arse) I’ve wanted to read the report. Not because I thought it was anything other than my hands shaking a bit, but because I wanted to know why. Mum kept saying that she’d get it for me, but that went on for 6 months, so I eventually asked her where it was. She said it was in the bookshelf, but not to worry, she’d get it out while I was at school. Of course, she didn’t, and that went on for a while. Being the lazy arse that I am, I didn’t look in the shelf.
Now, yesterday I was feeling pretty crappy, you know, cause I couldn’t do arty things or play guitar or even remix music (I really want to try, but I can’t find any free websites if you know any, could you leave a link in the comments? I’d really appreciate it.) so I decided to look for that report. I searched high and low, eventually with my mums help. It wasn’t there. After all that, it wasn’t there. I was already feeling like crap, so I just sort of collapsed onto my bed, and perhaps sobbed a bit. :/ after trying to turn on my very old laptop to go on tumblr (and failing horribly, by the way), I realised something. INTERNET!! So I went to my computer, and typed in “dyspraxia”. I don’t think I’ve cried so much in one day. Did mum even read my report?! So many things that I have issues with are caused by this thing!
Mum is always getting mad at me because I always forget to do stuff. But guess what. Yep, that’s caused by dyspraxia! I always had an inkling that the reason I always get my words muddled up and just dislike speaking is because of dyspraxia (and if it’s all the same to you I’m gonna call it prax now, cause it’s too long to type), but mum always said that it wasn’t, and that my prax wasn’t that severe. But it is! I was reading a forum and loads of people struggle with it. I’m pretty easily distracted, especially by noise, and I’m always getting told off for zoning out during a conversation. Thanks, prax! I also like to have something in my hands to fidget with, and it turns out that’s prax as well. Another memory thing is sequences, like dates and planning and instructions. There’s more, but they’re the main ones for me.
Now, don’t get me wrong, there’s a couple of plus sides to dyspraxia as well. For instance, people with prax often have very active imaginations and are very creative. Apparently, we:
-Are very determined-Have a good long term memory. While we can’t remember instructions, we have a good long term memory and even a photographic memory
And a couple of other peices of crap about emotions or something. It’s a good website, and you’ ll find it here: http://alifewithdyspraxia.webs.com/whatisdyspraxia.htm
Thing is, yeah, I’m pretty creative. I often think of cool pictures to draw. But I can’t. I can’t and I hate that I can see something in my mind and not translate it to paper. It really, really sucks. I do write a fair few stories though, and so that’s pretty cool, but I don’t know if any of them are any good.
Sorry about all that… I just needed to vent and stuff. Also, apparently loud noises and stuff affect us badly. I don’t think I have it too bad, but if there is an unexpected loud noise, I struggle a bit.
Right well, sorry this post was mostly about dyspraxia… But I hope you learnt something. One of the most common, annoying things we hear is “Oh, do you mean dyslexia?” No I do not mean fucking dyslexia. THEY ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. Haha… I’ll end this now.
P.S. I’ll try to post more regularly, but no promises